Monday, 29 April 2013
1-7.4 - 6am
I'm hoping for nothing... and of course got freaking everything.
Such a fat fat fat fat fat fat FAT idiot.
1hr Turbo Kick
Maybe something else. Hopefully. Because I'm a lazy fat person and need to.
And of course.
Fatty. Fatty McFatFat.
Sunday, 28 April 2013
I don't know what the hell to do.
I am so huge, and it's getting more and more overwhelmingly disgusting and annoying. I hate this.
I hate what I look and feel like.
I'm so disgusted.
Monday, 22 April 2013
1-6.0 - 9am
Wow. From 1#7 back up to 1-6. Good job. -_-
Going to start looking and applying more today, just praying some things fall into place to take next steps. Have jury duty call tomorrow - just praying I don't get called to serve the jury this time. And I need to get my smog check for my car taken care of, and make sure I pull the money out for my ticket so I don't think I have it anymore when it comes due in May.
Hoping that some friends from church are able to help me learn Quickbooks well enough over the next two weeks... I'll be calling on Wednesday to see if its a possibility... also praying hard that can work out quickly too.
Don't know what to do about the mission trip again, still.
Just trying to stay semi-positive and just move forward whatever step is next...
Thursday, 18 April 2013
1-3.7 - 9am
140g Blackberries - 60
101g Banana - 90
TOTAL - 150
1hr Power Barre
(maybe) 1 hr Hip Hop
So.... tax season ended on Monday. Had Tuesday off of work, just got stuff done, enjoyed the day, and went to dance. Came in to work yesterday at 10... and my boss is here. Small talk - then - I'm laid off. I'm finishing through the end of April; to help organize and move the office up the street to a different commercial building. But as of May 1st - I am now without a job.
Didn't see this coming.
I left work right after; went to church and talked to one of my moms; we went to lunch at Panera. Then I went and picked up my new flatiron from my hairstylist friend, chat with her for a few minutes to talk about her son's surgery Monday and that I was laid off. Then went home, took a nap, ate a salad, and went to dance class for the evening.
Now at work today, cleaning up things and boxing stuff to be able to move easier. Am hoping to fix my resume while I'm here, and maybe apply to some jobs I noticed on Craigslist last night. Also going to hopefully look into typing up my support letters for the mission trip I was supposed to be taking on June 28-July 9... maybe print them up on Monday if possible. Still needing to pray about that and just trust that hopefully it will work out.
I'm clearly struggling today with it; not very energetic nor... whatever I should be. Not depressed I don't think; but I'm definitely not happy and struggling more with doubt and such. Understandable; but still.
Saturday, 13 April 2013
1-6.5 - 7am
Oy. This is so ridiculous.
Random; but tuesday in jazz class - I had an overwhelming frustration I wanted to cut through.... what the heck? Luckily, I was in the middle of class for another 30 minutes, and didn't have an blades with me anyway - but still. I haven't had such an "I am so angry/frustrated/sad I need to cut" feeling in a good while. It's been about a year and a half since the last time I cut (yay) so this was weird, and semi-saddening.
Too much food still, too much work, not enough exercise. I'm so looking forward to tuesday... and just tuesday-saturday next week blasting out the gym and the dance studio and being around classes and moving again... when I do I naturally eat better... not this half good things; half crap....